you can't get hurt...

ever woke up and told yourself today will be a good day ?

smiled big, laughed a lot, than all of a sudden something

you thought to yourself just ruined that good day.

well thats how i feel right now. its so much easier to just

run from everything, than face it. even though it will come

back and everything, i think i rather not face them. the world

keeps spinning and it's not going to stop. time won't freeze and

let the good times play on repeat. cause everyday dreams&hopes

are being crushed, while all i can do is wonder what ifs, and i

just wish something good would happen.

i think sometimes holding onto something for so long just kills

cause i was once told remember why you held on for so long, well

its not the same anymore, everyone is bound to let go sometime,

and i think the sooner the better. im not waiting for anyone anymore,

times flying and im flying with it.

it's quite amazing how such wonderful memories can make people

smile so big, yet make them cry for hours, cause just the

right amount of happiness and thought put into something you

loved so much, can actually hurt so bad.

...if you dont care.
well i think i stopped caring.

cause the truth hurts, so people tend to lie to themselves.
if not, than the truth was a lie in a mask. people don't keep
their words, cause they are truly scared or they just wanted
to mess around. they don't mean what they say anymore, its
all a lie. promises are meant to be broken since they just felt
like making you happy and not give a damn about how you
feel later. trusting people has officially became an issue for
me and its really easy to gain my trust. i guess just the same
shit happens everytime that im just truly sick of it all.

i wanted to honestly prove to myself that they weren't all

the same and messed up, but now that i think of it, with all

my assumption, looks like i won't prove myself right.

people really wanted to prove me wrong, well guess what ?

congrats, you did it.

i wish to erase my memory. cause sometimes having

so many good times, i will miss it all, therefore causing

me to have the past interfere with me now.

it would be nice if i can just dream forever and never

wake up.