5.31.2010
5.29.2010
i like how
i can only be determined for like a little while then it dies.
i dont have to energy to keep driving myself to reach my goal.
lets face it, two Bs, possible C, three As.
thas no bueno.
summer needs to be here, but i dont even want to start thinking about summer school, SATs, and the future.
i know as the years go by things become harder and there is more challenges to face, but what if i i told you that i already want to give up ? every year i see people take on everyday with all their strength and they get through it, i think it can't be that bad because they are surviving. but what if i was wrong, what if im the only one who is failing ? i know they say there are tons of people just out there feeling how you feel, but what if those people are the ones that are smart enough to not push themselves as hard? what if those are the people that take it easy yet still face challenges and survive ? im pushing myself to survive this day and im coming to a conclusion that im not cut out for this.
i know i may sound like im complaining a lot right now, but this is just what im thinking about.
yeah every kid is overwhelmed, but my attempt to blog how im feeling is failing.
i always thought i said everything on my mind, but i realized i hold back more than just speaking out whats on my mind.
as for summer, i can take on teaching two classes&taking two(hoping more) per week, training with jami once a week, summer school, but as studying SATs by myself... thats the biggest disappointment right thurr. i dont want to ask to take classes. as for going to taiwan, i dont even want to go. we're tight on this whole money crap and its not looking good. i get lectured either twice a week or i over hear my mom talking to my dad on the phone about money, then hearing about how she wishes i be much successful when i grow older. hearing how shes almost ____ and isn't retiring, or how she probably will never have a house of her own, or how she is never able to do all the things she wishes to do, breaks my heart more and more every day.
no matter how hard i strive just for a better future just for my parents, i think that future is just crumbling to pieces for every breath i take in and every tear that falls.
i should get back to my math and chem study guides, oh joy.
ciao.
i dont have to energy to keep driving myself to reach my goal.
lets face it, two Bs, possible C, three As.
thas no bueno.
summer needs to be here, but i dont even want to start thinking about summer school, SATs, and the future.
i know as the years go by things become harder and there is more challenges to face, but what if i i told you that i already want to give up ? every year i see people take on everyday with all their strength and they get through it, i think it can't be that bad because they are surviving. but what if i was wrong, what if im the only one who is failing ? i know they say there are tons of people just out there feeling how you feel, but what if those people are the ones that are smart enough to not push themselves as hard? what if those are the people that take it easy yet still face challenges and survive ? im pushing myself to survive this day and im coming to a conclusion that im not cut out for this.
i know i may sound like im complaining a lot right now, but this is just what im thinking about.
yeah every kid is overwhelmed, but my attempt to blog how im feeling is failing.
i always thought i said everything on my mind, but i realized i hold back more than just speaking out whats on my mind.
as for summer, i can take on teaching two classes&taking two(hoping more) per week, training with jami once a week, summer school, but as studying SATs by myself... thats the biggest disappointment right thurr. i dont want to ask to take classes. as for going to taiwan, i dont even want to go. we're tight on this whole money crap and its not looking good. i get lectured either twice a week or i over hear my mom talking to my dad on the phone about money, then hearing about how she wishes i be much successful when i grow older. hearing how shes almost ____ and isn't retiring, or how she probably will never have a house of her own, or how she is never able to do all the things she wishes to do, breaks my heart more and more every day.
no matter how hard i strive just for a better future just for my parents, i think that future is just crumbling to pieces for every breath i take in and every tear that falls.
i should get back to my math and chem study guides, oh joy.
ciao.
5.18.2010
5.16.2010
today
or yesterday night was tiring.
my feet hurt !
but working at prom was pretty fun !
free food, music, drinks, work out, seeing people, etc !
LOL !
the girl who made her tutu prom dress was my favorite (=
hahaha !
good seeing a lot of people today !
fun stuff, tomorrow = alyson's party and french final, no bueno )=
right now todd must be still trying to figure out my birthday, FAIL FRIEND RIGHT THERE !
hi todd, you fail (=
my feet hurt !
but working at prom was pretty fun !
free food, music, drinks, work out, seeing people, etc !
LOL !
the girl who made her tutu prom dress was my favorite (=
hahaha !
good seeing a lot of people today !
fun stuff, tomorrow = alyson's party and french final, no bueno )=
right now todd must be still trying to figure out my birthday, FAIL FRIEND RIGHT THERE !
hi todd, you fail (=
5.15.2010
nineteen more days
of school + weekend left !
than summer school and all those fun stuff -.-
school does fly by.
felt like yesterday was freshmen year and soon tomorrow will be junior hell.
well its okay, cause im ready to tackle junior year.
HAHAHA, watch me fail (=
well its 2:47pm and im waiting for time to hurry and fly because i want to get over with working at prom then deal with tomorrow's french final )=
SO LAME ! WHY DO WE NEED TO GO ALL THE WAY TO LA JUST TO TALK TO FRENCH PEOPLE WHEN WE CAN DO IT IN CHINO D: ?!
these two weeks need to end, im ready to fail my finals.
okay ! bye (=
than summer school and all those fun stuff -.-
school does fly by.
felt like yesterday was freshmen year and soon tomorrow will be junior hell.
well its okay, cause im ready to tackle junior year.
HAHAHA, watch me fail (=
well its 2:47pm and im waiting for time to hurry and fly because i want to get over with working at prom then deal with tomorrow's french final )=
SO LAME ! WHY DO WE NEED TO GO ALL THE WAY TO LA JUST TO TALK TO FRENCH PEOPLE WHEN WE CAN DO IT IN CHINO D: ?!
these two weeks need to end, im ready to fail my finals.
okay ! bye (=
5.12.2010
hello.
i haven't blogged for a while.
today was may day (=
haha fun fun !
lets see; tomorrow, i have a chem test.
and if i fail chem im gonna weep T.T
i bsed my way through chem, all i need is to get through chem and hello ap bio !
i feel like no matter how much i try in chem i still fail.
what a fail.
not looking forward to french final. freakin also the same day as alyson's party )=
no bueno. eff you french final, going all the way to LA to talk to poeple when we could do this somewhere closer. THEN we're going to roscoes. i dont even care anymore, i dont want to go )= FML D:<
i sort of wish i took spanish now ! but at the same time im glad i took french !
anyways, lets see, i don't really have anything to say.
but i have been keeping a lot to myself.
well im beyond ready for summer <3
goodbye sophomore year and MALVEAUX !
hello junior hell, beaches, summer school, disneyland, hang outs, work outs, bonfires, training, dance, SAT, etc.
i think i take advantage of high school too much.
im probably going to miss it when i leave.
but until then, EFF YOU CHEM&class of 12 !
I DESPISE THIS CLASS, we dont ever get along, we dont have spirit, we have the rudest kids, shy, fobby, jerks, self centered, and lamest people ever. i seriously just wish we would all just get along.
and for the class shirts crap;
its not gray, SUCK IT and get over it. the printing is red, why not the other way or something?! ITS JUST HOW IT IS ! dont like the design ? get over it, we asked for designs and crap, you guys didn't give us CRAP, so at least burry was nice enough to design one for us. so SHUT IT, and get over it. and we need parents for bingo.
no parents = no bingo = no money = no prom.
so if you have a parent who is willing to deal with bingo, please go tell an officer (=
today was may day (=
haha fun fun !
lets see; tomorrow, i have a chem test.
and if i fail chem im gonna weep T.T
i bsed my way through chem, all i need is to get through chem and hello ap bio !
i feel like no matter how much i try in chem i still fail.
what a fail.
not looking forward to french final. freakin also the same day as alyson's party )=
no bueno. eff you french final, going all the way to LA to talk to poeple when we could do this somewhere closer. THEN we're going to roscoes. i dont even care anymore, i dont want to go )= FML D:<
i sort of wish i took spanish now ! but at the same time im glad i took french !
anyways, lets see, i don't really have anything to say.
but i have been keeping a lot to myself.
well im beyond ready for summer <3
goodbye sophomore year and MALVEAUX !
hello junior hell, beaches, summer school, disneyland, hang outs, work outs, bonfires, training, dance, SAT, etc.
i think i take advantage of high school too much.
im probably going to miss it when i leave.
but until then, EFF YOU CHEM&class of 12 !
I DESPISE THIS CLASS, we dont ever get along, we dont have spirit, we have the rudest kids, shy, fobby, jerks, self centered, and lamest people ever. i seriously just wish we would all just get along.
and for the class shirts crap;
its not gray, SUCK IT and get over it. the printing is red, why not the other way or something?! ITS JUST HOW IT IS ! dont like the design ? get over it, we asked for designs and crap, you guys didn't give us CRAP, so at least burry was nice enough to design one for us. so SHUT IT, and get over it. and we need parents for bingo.
no parents = no bingo = no money = no prom.
so if you have a parent who is willing to deal with bingo, please go tell an officer (=
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