i hate

running, but i love running at the beach in the sand even though it makes you more tired (: haha. i know im weird. beach today with shannon, audrey, my sister&her friends; kevin, jonathan, and teresa. haha, very funnn ! went around 5 ishh and it was sorta cloudy ): so no tan, but at least im not burnt :P went into the ocean and i slipped and kinda scraped my knee, but its all good ! went wood hunting since we only had two, HAHAHA ! cooked some good hot dogs & carne asda ! played some mao, HAHAHAHAHA ! so hilarious ! roasted some marshmallows which was fun and yummy ! felt super fat -___- played some frisbee in the dark and ran around, felt really nice. walked back to the pit and started to play with the marshmallows. started to stack them and we put the skewers together to make it longer so we wouldnt burn ourselves. just watched the marshmallows grow bigger and pitch black. mm cancer on a stick. and just burned all the marshmallows and skewers into the pit. HAHAHA, playing with food was funny, LOL ! than the fire started to die and the people next to us left, so we pit hopped over to theirs since they still had fire. then fire started to die. so shannon, audrey & i went to look for wood, hahahahah ! found a lot of wood but there was only 15 minutes left, so we dragged it back to our pit and just let it burn. then i started to burn my english notebook & math notebook. shannon helped. haha, that was good memory to look back at what i wrote and that stupid letter to myself. good times. now im super tired & i want to go back. i want to go run again :P
kaka kaka RAWR ! hahaha(:

500 days

of summer<3 go watch it, its worth it.

so stayed up til 2 yesterday just to watch
a movie called dim sum funeral. yes, its a
lame asian movie, but it wasn't as bad as
i expected it to be. its pretty funny with
the horrible acting, but the moral is actually
really good. go watch it, no joke. i cried to it,
cause it was good, but then again i cry easily.
when i grow older and move out, if i ever
become like those kids, never visiting or calling
or anything, please shoot me or knock some
sense into me. its like not knowing your own
mother once you leave and you dont come back
unless you find out she died. thats so horrible, at
least visit or call in.

ive been thinking, im not just saying only others, i
know i do this too, but im reading blogspots; all i read
about is backstabbing, lying, unhappiness because of
small stuff, and being ungrateful. what happened to us ?
we grow older to understand more, not to complain more.
we complain on the smallest things like if things dont go
our way. well if you think about it, its life, life isnt fair;
you have your good and your bad. but how much good
is in your life ? most people are just looking how much
bad is in their life and just want more and more, when
they have so much to be grateful for already.

yay, for beach&bonfire tomorrow (: next up on the list;
disney&knotts && of course more beach&bonfire !
lets hang, yeah ?

long post, okay, i think i'll stop here.

sophomore

1. chem h - goya
2. alg 2 - matloub
3. french 3 - tietz
4. world history - gaxiola
5. beginning dance - lindenberg
6. eng 2 h - galindo

++summer

goal;
-nails done with audrey<3

haha (:

one more

day of summer school(:
HAHA, im excited !
than to disney, beach, knotts, and more
fun !

if you lie, you dont deserve to have friends.
newport living - cute is what we aim for

haha, old song, but it came up on my itunes
yesterday, so it was stuck in my head all night.

than this morning heard knock you down like
twice and kanye's part was stuck in my head :P

tell me now can you make it past your caspers?
so we can finally fly off into nasa, you were always the
cheerleader of my dreams and seem to only date the head
of the football teams and i was the class clown that always
kept you laughing, we were never meant to be baby we
just happen. so please, dont mess up the trick, hey young
world. im the new slick rick, they say i move to quick, but we
cant less the moment pass us. let the hourglass pass right
into ashes. let the wind blow the as right before my glasses,
so i wrote this love letter right before my classes.


(:

haha !

sometimes

i just need to really stop caring so much
and being so paranoid with everything
or better yet, just stop breathing.



i hate when everything builds up then
someone goes and knocks it over.

seven

more days of summer school !
yay !
boo, summer work ):

i like how when parents say oh
do what you want, its your life.
okay, so if i feel like going to dance
then going to play badminton, why
do you need to throw a fit about it ?
you told me it was my life&body im
overwhelming. then stop giving me
fits about it. i know you care and stuff,
but i know my limits&everything, and
im doing alright in school, you dont see
me failing bio yet. so why can't you just
let me go dance&play some badminton,
i dont see the harm in that. im going to
finish all my homework&study before
dance&during badminton like last time.
you know im not stupid and i know the
consequences of every choice i make, so
for once why dont you just trust me with
myself and let me ?!


summer is almost over, so sad -_____x

you took

our forever and ever away.
forever - j. lie ft. laron

today was fun. finished all bio
homework, then to the beach&
the oc fair with my sister and her
friend&her cousins&her aunt. that
was fun. sat in the trunk the whole
time xP
well i want to go to the beach again,
felt really good to be at the beach xP
but parking is a real pain -_____x


so, ive been thinking a lot, well obviously
its me. but just a lot going through my mind.
seems like everything happens for a reason and
sometimes when i want something and it doesnt
go right, its usually a sign. well so far, i really dont
like these signs. im getting uber jealous and sad at
the same time.

i hate how we dont talk anymore. i hate how
everything changed between us. you said you didnt
want to lose someone like me, then why arnt we
talking anymore. seems like you are so busy now,
but it really seems like your just ignoring me. but do
tell me one thing, what happened ? what happened to
keeping your words&promises ? sometimes i really
wish i never met you and at the same time i just wish
you would talk to me like we use to. you gave me the
best time at my worst, but now you've just have been
giving me a years worth of thinking.


and krystal, im sorry -___x even though you said its not
my fault for telling him, im still sorry. if i hadnt told him
you two would still be friends. but dont forget you promised
you would try talking to him and apologizing for that stupid
mistake you made. but remember this, if he still is holding that
stupid grudge, boys are stupid. they like to mess with girls'
heads and everything. i promise you, you arnt the only one
with situations like this. but you do know that you two were
cute together, so dont give up hope. keep trying to talk to him
and maybe..idk, PROM?! haha (: you know my idea is good ;)


boys are stupid. players are jerks. but the one thing they both
have in common are that they both like to play with minds ):

i'll have you know

i'm scared to death.
jersey - mayday parade


i miss disneyland uber much.
lets go !

reminder for myself;
100 pounds.
photo contest.
english honors work.
pass bio.
tan.
beach&bonfire x3.
disneyland x2.
knotts.
haircut.
become more flexible.
make birdies.
owe jung, sam, and my sister dinner if im still alive
past 2012.
watch my sisters keeper&the ugly truth.
santa monica.
go shopping shopping.
become determine&not give up so easily.
stop thinking so much.
stop thinking so negatively.
stop cursing so much.

you know what sucks?!
its when your down and people put
you down even more cause its fun/funny.
i know i do that to some people, but to an extent.

i hate how my tolerance is dropping by the
hour, im getting so annoyed and mad easily,
getting upset&worrying&stressing over nothing
or over something in less than a heartbeat, getting
so jealous/envious of people, feeling so out of place,
that i feel like im being used, feeling left out than
having a friend be all cool cool with me cause they
probably want/need something from me, wanting
to achieve but being lazy, getting fat, not being as
determined as i use to be, giving up so easily, not
knowing who my friends are, and more importantly
loosing myself.

it's late, i wasted a night attempting to study for bio.
that was a major fail. what a waste of a perfectly
good open gym time. i hate feeling disappointed.

i need to start running again -____x fatty.

i hate summer school, i hate that 30 minute break.
its official overall my whole summer, i look forward
to only going to dance class&open gym, cause i dont
need to talk/think so much.

i really need to get away from diamond bar.

mm sort of a long blog. sort of sad/depressing...
oh well, get over it.

night.

happy

4th of july !

highlight of summer

is basically watching transformers, the proposal, going to
open gym, and going to my sister's friend's kickbacks.

sorry, jonathan for leaving so early today. i hope you still
had fun&i'll miss you when you leave ><


summer09 sucks so far, i hate it. this is majorly uber
BORING. summer school consists of too much summer
school&summer work. its so lame that dbhs has summer
work and other schools dont. and i wish i can clap my hands
and i'd appear anywhere i wish to be. so..."clap clap" to the
beach (:

pft, too bad its not true -____-