i know

its a little late, but still;
R.I.P. Michael Jackson



i agree (:

we can live it

or we can just let it go by,
lose yourself, in my arms ,
and together we can live amongst the stars.
-riz


today, was my birthday. after hinting for almost 2 months
for a Wii, my dad pulls out a shiny new Wii package. the
only problem ? the box didn't have a Wii in it. my dad
gave me a Wii box with my vcr inside and a note saying
"this is life. once you think your happy, someone crushes
it." fml.

HAHAHAHAHA ! i found that incredibly funny yet sadly
very very very true ):



and times like now i just want to run, run as far as my
legs will take me, with my held head high, tears held back,
not looking back, without having to worry or think, and
being far far away from here.

i hate you.


i really need to get out of here -____- i need my license
and a car right now. theres basically no one i want to talk
to right now to make me feel better. i just want to punch
you in the face and scream my butt off at you.
well either way bitch, i hope you drop dead. you piss me off
with your stupid little fake smile&two face backstabbing
snobby ass attitude.

i get so annoyed with people now. i feel horrible.

anyways, i need a good day soon. i was so excited for a relaxing
day on friday, pftttt found out dance recital is on both friday&
saturday. so that pretty much just killed me free day, oh wells,
thats what i get.

so i want some robeks or juice it up or jamba juice -___-
fatass, yeah i know -___x
and im craving for....., yes its disneyland (:

and and and of course the beach (:



























and now, knock you down is stuck in my head, especially
kanye's retarded part, but its pretty dang catchy :D

keep rockin and keep knockin, whether you louie vouitonned
up or reebokin. you see the hate that they're servin on the platter,
so what we gonna have, desert or disaster.

-goodnight !

so...

summer is still kinda lame.
i want to get out, like no joke.
saw the proposal yesterday, was
really good. i enjoyed it (:
but thats not enough, i need to
get out like more -____x

summer school is whatever.
i must/need to go to the beach&
disneyland or i think i will go crazy
this summer.

thank you shannon fan for my dug<3
and my lovely card&badge (: i love it !

and these are those rare moments when
i wish i was back in taiwan cause id have so
much more to do then what i do here. even
though i say i dont like going back, i actually
enjoy it. even though the people tend to make
me mad, its still fun, hahaha reminds me of
those days when my sister and i first bonded
cause we were bored out of our minds -__x
and also i kinda want to celebrate fathers day
with my dad, but that didn't really work out.
happy late fathers day, papa.

anyways 25 weeks of saving up money, i want
to buy a lens camera so im saving up.

so these few hours, days, weeks, months, i realized
a lot. one, i still feel like crap. two, i always feel like
crap just sometimes less or more then other times.
three, i realized that a lot has changed and im just
having the most difficult time accepting the change.
four, i over think way too much for my little brain
to handle. five, i miss a lot. six, my tolerance for
people are decreasing really fast. seven, i like to lie
to myself too much -__x eight, i should be grateful
instead of complaining all the time. nine, even though
i know something is wrong, i still make the wrong choices.
ten, i am jealous of a lot of people&i envy it. eleven, i have
many goals and plans for myself, i just dont set out and
try to reach for them cause im lazy. this is horrible -_x
twelve, i expect too much. thirteen, my train of thoughts
make sense to the point they dont make sense. fourteen,
there is so much to this life, but im not going out to live
life to its fullest. fifteen, i have so much more, but it'd take
up a million pages probably.

even though all that sounds sort of sad, i guess you can say
im sad, but at the same time im not cause thats what i think
and i accept it (:

pictures on tumblr are so interesting ! i love it :P

transformers&my sisters keeper comes out this friday, well
thas two more movies i got to watch !

so i saw this and thought it was cool (:
aha, welcome to most of the everyday life of humans.


goodnight.

summer school

is too boring. it feels like its forever&won't
end. taking bio; goya's alright, iwanaga is
just boring. i dont like him whatsoever.
everyday i just stare at this wall of pictures
and from where i sit, i can only recognize
ashley chang's prom picture and ashley's
brother's prom picture, HAHAHAHAHAHA !
-____-, that class is boring, and it smells.
stupid crickets running around -____x
goya's class, at least keeps me more awake
than iwanaga. which is good i guess.

i really really really really really really
want to go to disneyland and honestly
i dont care about the price, i really want to
go really bad. oh, and of course the beach
too !

i hate this feeling. i hate all these stupid mix
feelings&confusion. friends come and go, but
i really want to believe that true friends stay
by your side, no matter what. but sometimes
i guess you really can't trust anyone but yourself.

i wish it was thursday so i can go to open gym (:


i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate
that stupid bitch. she can drop dead. im sorry,
i didnt know i have to report everything that i do
in my life to you. eff, we're not even best friends
or anything ! no one likes you, your messed up.
stop talking crap about all the moms. you and your
stupid never healing sprain can stay sprained.
correction, i hope karma comes around and bite you
worse than what has happened so far. you really
deserve it. you're so mean&you get so jealous, its
annoying. no one wants to hear you talk bull about
everyone during class. so what if some people are
better than you at something?! doesnt mean you
need to bag on them, but then again, its okay,
cause no one really likes you.



if that boy dont love you by now.
he will never ever, never ever love you.
he will never ever, never ever love you.
if that boy dont love you by now.
he will never ever, never ever love you.
he will never ever, never ever love you.
-ciara


okay, yeah i know everything is pretty random
in this blog, it jumps around, but oh well.




so everytime i think of an ant, i think of
my loving sister (:<3

okay, bye !

since today

is almost over, i think i'll blog.

today was really disappointing.

thanks to those that remembered<3

those that forgot, whatever. i didn't
think i had to remind some people,
and i dont plan on reminding you guys
ever, if you forget that just shows how
bad of a friend you are.

im trying really hard to not be a brat,
but i was actually excited for today.
i feel really forgotten and i had a not
so wonderful day&&i feel like crap.
and im trying really hard not to
complain about it, but eff it, im sick of it.

i really expected today to be so much better.
i didn't think i had to plan something
for someone to try to hang out with me.
i didn't think it was that hard for people
to plan something out for me or something.

well im tired, but its only 8 and i still want to
go out, but i just dont know where.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

today needs to be over cause im just having
a bad day now. im not happy&i was really
excited&happy cause i expected a good day.

i guess not any more -____-
and the thought came to me, if you forget mine,
i should pretend like i dont give a damn about yours.

i dont like today, i wish today never came.

this day needs to be over now, unless someone can
seriously take me out right now and make it better,
then by all means, come&&let me be able to sleep
with a smile tonight.

today

was fun (:
class committee party
@ ryans ! oh gosh, big house.
swimming pool, pool table, fire pits,
smores, lakers game, and so on (:

got there around 4:45 pm with winnie !
ate, attempted to play tennis...fail, scooter
for a little, then changed and went swimming (:
first to go in, then winnie and so on. everyone
went in pool cept james & justin -____x
swam, tried to play marco polo..fail, people went
down on the water slide, played chicken....shannon
tried to break my neck -___- megan fell before we
even started, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA<3
but after, everyone was in the jacuzzi cept shannon
and i, so we went to go change. they played
animal kingdom, then ann&jason changed.
justin, james, shannon, ann, jason, and i roasted
marshmallows for smores (: than everyone came
up and we went in to play pool&watch lakers came.

booo, lakers lost ): justin is freaking good at pool -__x
what sucks is i gave him advice&he beat me -____-

than ate more pizza :P than shannon and i went out,
the fire pit was out, so we tried to bring it alive.
put wood in the pit, put some oil, than i went to those
heater stands thingy, where its burning on the top, grabbed
a piece of wood and rubbed it against the hot metal part of the
heater so the fire would catch on, AND IT WORKED ! i felt proud
cause we were looking for matches/lighter, and couldnt find it, so
i used to heater for fire :D the pit lit up. there was fire for like 30
seconds, than it died -___- shannon and i kept trying to save it.
than we had to go :P went to her house&made more smores over
the stove ! hahaha, yummy cancer on a stick :D

anyways today was fun !


you know what i hate?! when you try to keep a convo going, or
someone ims you first, they try to talk to you, but they just let
the conversation die, while your trying to save it. freaking. im
missing freshmen year already ><

my neck hurts ):

summer has been pretty good so far ! im excited for badminton
camp tomorrow, HAHAHAHAHA ! i guess its cause im out and i
actually like playing&&i dont know, just happy right now. i feel bipolar.
missing memories, yet excited&happy.

okay, well thats it.
bye bye !

i hate

this world, there are way too many songs in this world,
that i either will go broke, have 2934793274983 viruses,
or its so complicated to have every song i want. i dont want
to buy music off itunes, but downloading has too much virus crap.

so anyways, i really want a paintball gun. so after eating pho at
saigon with my sister, and heading home, this stupid car switches
lanes as if she was gonna get hit in her lane. so we switched lanes,
checked the asshole out, turns out i know the girl&her boyfriend.
she was in my graphics class and i met her boy at a basketball game.
if i had a paintball gun, id shoot her car, whether its hers or not.
and she was smiling huge knowing she made a effin mistake, but she
was proud of it.

i hope she gets a ticket or something.
i hope karma gets back at her !


i have so much twisted things i can do to people that tick me off.
im such a bitch -_____x
well you know, when im on the road&you are too, dont piss me off (:

summer

started off pretty good !
friday; ashley's birthday, haha, her party was pretty funn !
sat; dance&then last minute plans w/ audrey&shannon !
too bad winnie couldnt come ): dance flick, was stupid funny,
but way better than epic movie.
today; watched up again, but w/ sister&mom.

haha (:
i really wish i can drive !
blehhhhhhhhhhh !

summer plans/main goals;
- survive summer school
- finish english 2 honors summer work
- go to the beach&have a bonfire x 3
- disneyland !<3
- movies x 5
- night/city lights x 3
- stargazing
- la
- santa monica
- newport beach
- run every morning or night
- concerts !

ahaha, the rest can just be whatever,
i just want to have fun this summer !

twothousandnine.

congratulations c/o 2009 !

selling food at the concession stand
with kay, annie, shannon,
and the rest was pretty fun (:

graduation was sad and stuff, can't
believe another year gone by so fast.

freshmen year out, sophomore year in.
school's out, summer's in.
party it up (:
time for open gyms, running,
dance classes, disneyland, bonfire&beach,
summer birthdays, movies&sleepovers, late nights,
summer work&summer school -____-

it all sounded good until i remembered i had summer
school and that i couldnt drive ):

let the good times roll.

have a wonderful summer !

-michelle

holding back

sucks. when you have so much
you want to say or do, and you
just let the chance pass by,
than later regretting it or
get mad at yourself because you
didn't take the risk just seriously
suck like crazy. i hate that feeling ):

half a day of school left. wow, freshmen
year flew by. as much as a lot of it sucked
it was still pretty good. it had its ups and
a lot of downs, but it had its good moments
that i wish it never ended ): makes me sad
to think about it now -___-" too bad it did !
goodbye freshmen year, hello sophomore year.

tomorrow is the last day as a freshmen, so
whatever you got to say as a freshman, say
it now, because we no longer have much time.
after tomorrow, we dont have another day.

i love my mom<3>
watched house bunny during french, hilarious.
watched seven pounds during math, bored out
of my mind -_______- than lunch came, i
ditched school, mother pulled me out of class
saying i was ill, HAHAHAHA ! than went to eat
sushi with her and went home. than she left, thunder came (:
felt sleepy, was about to sleep until i got a text saying im
at your gate, than walked to gate to open it for the nerd<3
ahaha, hung out for a while, then the nerd left, and im tired.
im going to go sleep :P

i dont get

why i even go to school this week -____x
im done with finals, we're not doing squat
in class.

if i could drive, id just call in sick or something
and just drive to the beach or something.
blahhhh, this week is sadish; yet boring.

only a day & 1/2 of school left >

im bored, i want to go out, i still need to get
gifts and all that good stuff (: