my blogs is so everywhere, LOL !

i think im going to dye my hair sometime before this month ends.
im sick of how i look.
i think im going to clean out my wardrobe, once i get enough money to go shopping (:
i know what i want and somehow, im determined to get it !
i'm working my butt off in school, but it seems to never be good enough.
im working hard in dance, but the teacher doesn't even see it, she just has a lot to say about my flaws. but thank you for the criticism, it helps. it just be nice if you put yourself in our shoes.
im aiming for that camera i want&the annual pass, even though disneyland is remodeling for the next two years.
im going to get my permit and license before i turn 17, whether you want me to or not.
im juggling dance, school, badminton, teaching dance, attempting to have a life, and i'm not going to crash and burn.


typing whats on my mind & pretend my mom is reading this.

i know you always just hope that i crash and burn so you can be there to fix it or just pick at my flaws thinking im still five and i need training wheels. but please realize this; im growing older, im no longer in middle school. i'll be leaving high school in two years. im going to get hurt, i can feel pain, i know right from wrong. i always update you so you know im not dead or getting crunk. i'm not that naive. i still have a lot to learn but thas what experiences are for, if you never let me do anything and just keep me in a bubble i will never learn. i know you wish you can go back to when i was only in elementary school so you can change me and fix everything about me that you think is horrible. well i'm sorry i yell at you&give you attitude, but do know that i never mean any of it. i get mad and frustrated, just like other people, but thank you for all those life lessons that i tune out cause honestly i know them by heart. as i grow older, they will always be on repeat in my head and hopefully one day i'll make you proud. im sorry that margaret and i are two daughters you could never brag about because we quit piano and will probably never score a 2400 on SAT and are not the brightest kids in class. but we are happy and i hope that is good enough for you one day.

i'll always be your little girl, but please do know you have to slowly let go. i love you<3

i am

starting to miss a lot.
i want to be able to go back in time.

i see how i want to be within three months,
but i know i wont achieve it at all.

i seriously

love badminton season<3
they are all i look forward.
the isa group + nathan make my day, no joke !
i couldnt ask for a better group :P

season is all i look forward when at school, they can bring me to my lowest and my highest.

today was such an awesome day !

now to die in homework -___-"
shouldve slept on the bus, but too much fun drawing and laughing.
im so ready to sleep -___-

peaceeee !