smile, even if you everything isn't okay.

im sick of being paranoid, of playing nice, of
pretending everythings okay, of caring about
everything so much, of caring about you when
you dont really care about me.

i hate

running, but i love running at the beach in the sand even though it makes you more tired (: haha. i know im weird. beach today with shannon, audrey, my sister&her friends; kevin, jonathan, and teresa. haha, very funnn ! went around 5 ishh and it was sorta cloudy ): so no tan, but at least im not burnt :P went into the ocean and i slipped and kinda scraped my knee, but its all good ! went wood hunting since we only had two, HAHAHA ! cooked some good hot dogs & carne asda ! played some mao, HAHAHAHAHA ! so hilarious ! roasted some marshmallows which was fun and yummy ! felt super fat -___- played some frisbee in the dark and ran around, felt really nice. walked back to the pit and started to play with the marshmallows. started to stack them and we put the skewers together to make it longer so we wouldnt burn ourselves. just watched the marshmallows grow bigger and pitch black. mm cancer on a stick. and just burned all the marshmallows and skewers into the pit. HAHAHA, playing with food was funny, LOL ! than the fire started to die and the people next to us left, so we pit hopped over to theirs since they still had fire. then fire started to die. so shannon, audrey & i went to look for wood, hahahahah ! found a lot of wood but there was only 15 minutes left, so we dragged it back to our pit and just let it burn. then i started to burn my english notebook & math notebook. shannon helped. haha, that was good memory to look back at what i wrote and that stupid letter to myself. good times. now im super tired & i want to go back. i want to go run again :P
kaka kaka RAWR ! hahaha(:

500 days

of summer<3 go watch it, its worth it.

so stayed up til 2 yesterday just to watch
a movie called dim sum funeral. yes, its a
lame asian movie, but it wasn't as bad as
i expected it to be. its pretty funny with
the horrible acting, but the moral is actually
really good. go watch it, no joke. i cried to it,
cause it was good, but then again i cry easily.
when i grow older and move out, if i ever
become like those kids, never visiting or calling
or anything, please shoot me or knock some
sense into me. its like not knowing your own
mother once you leave and you dont come back
unless you find out she died. thats so horrible, at
least visit or call in.

ive been thinking, im not just saying only others, i
know i do this too, but im reading blogspots; all i read
about is backstabbing, lying, unhappiness because of
small stuff, and being ungrateful. what happened to us ?
we grow older to understand more, not to complain more.
we complain on the smallest things like if things dont go
our way. well if you think about it, its life, life isnt fair;
you have your good and your bad. but how much good
is in your life ? most people are just looking how much
bad is in their life and just want more and more, when
they have so much to be grateful for already.

yay, for beach&bonfire tomorrow (: next up on the list;
disney&knotts && of course more beach&bonfire !
lets hang, yeah ?

long post, okay, i think i'll stop here.