sometimes

i just need to really stop caring so much
and being so paranoid with everything
or better yet, just stop breathing.



i hate when everything builds up then
someone goes and knocks it over.

seven

more days of summer school !
yay !
boo, summer work ):

i like how when parents say oh
do what you want, its your life.
okay, so if i feel like going to dance
then going to play badminton, why
do you need to throw a fit about it ?
you told me it was my life&body im
overwhelming. then stop giving me
fits about it. i know you care and stuff,
but i know my limits&everything, and
im doing alright in school, you dont see
me failing bio yet. so why can't you just
let me go dance&play some badminton,
i dont see the harm in that. im going to
finish all my homework&study before
dance&during badminton like last time.
you know im not stupid and i know the
consequences of every choice i make, so
for once why dont you just trust me with
myself and let me ?!


summer is almost over, so sad -_____x

you took

our forever and ever away.
forever - j. lie ft. laron

today was fun. finished all bio
homework, then to the beach&
the oc fair with my sister and her
friend&her cousins&her aunt. that
was fun. sat in the trunk the whole
time xP
well i want to go to the beach again,
felt really good to be at the beach xP
but parking is a real pain -_____x


so, ive been thinking a lot, well obviously
its me. but just a lot going through my mind.
seems like everything happens for a reason and
sometimes when i want something and it doesnt
go right, its usually a sign. well so far, i really dont
like these signs. im getting uber jealous and sad at
the same time.

i hate how we dont talk anymore. i hate how
everything changed between us. you said you didnt
want to lose someone like me, then why arnt we
talking anymore. seems like you are so busy now,
but it really seems like your just ignoring me. but do
tell me one thing, what happened ? what happened to
keeping your words&promises ? sometimes i really
wish i never met you and at the same time i just wish
you would talk to me like we use to. you gave me the
best time at my worst, but now you've just have been
giving me a years worth of thinking.


and krystal, im sorry -___x even though you said its not
my fault for telling him, im still sorry. if i hadnt told him
you two would still be friends. but dont forget you promised
you would try talking to him and apologizing for that stupid
mistake you made. but remember this, if he still is holding that
stupid grudge, boys are stupid. they like to mess with girls'
heads and everything. i promise you, you arnt the only one
with situations like this. but you do know that you two were
cute together, so dont give up hope. keep trying to talk to him
and maybe..idk, PROM?! haha (: you know my idea is good ;)


boys are stupid. players are jerks. but the one thing they both
have in common are that they both like to play with minds ):